Of Tears

...It had been so long since the last time my tears had dropped.

It feels so weird now for I could not cry...

Perhaps I have been holding up too much lately...

I hope by the time it really flows, it will not result flash flood.

Of Friendship

Having a friend is crucial for every individual. Even an animal needs to have a companion. However, friendship does not function like an employer-employee relationship. Friends do not have to sign a contract of service neither a contract for service between one another.

In my humble opinion, I believe there are boundaries between two individuals even if they are good friends.

Being a friend of another does not bind me to undertake any responsibilities and undertaking which I do not wish to partake. Albeit we are friends, there are times that we should give and take. Mere taking alone will result dissatisfaction and annoyance.

Just because one have tasks needed to be dealt with, it does not mean others must lend their hands, mind and feet. YOU need to understand that your friends might also have works or activities to be done.

Another notion to be considered is about asking for a request. Everyone has to realize the fact that when one proposes a request to a friend, it is not binding. So, if they refuse to help, respect their decision because they reserved the privilege to do so. Perhaps your siblings can endure your facial expression and slander, but most humans cannot.

Moreover, please acknowledge their effort with a sincere expression of gratitude when your friends are willing to help out.

There are also friends who like to take things for granted. This species tends to expect others to assist them. And the ridiculous part is when you have declined their behests, they will claim that you are not a friend or you are unlike his or her best buddy in Pluto. I positively recommend them to see a psychiatrist.

However, worst of all are the ones that expect friends to pay for them. They are like scoundrels because they tend to "forget" that they owe you money even though they are the ones that asked you to pay for them initially. Only god knows how such mindset can exist. Needless to say, when your friend paid for you when you are "unable" to pay, is it not the least you can do is to remember the favor ? Bloodsuckers.

All in all, for me, the definition for friendship is about two individuals having respect, understanding and appreciation between each other. So appreciate and respect your friends when they deserve it.

P/S: If you are miffed with this post, maybe you are the type that : (i) always expect your friends to oblige with your request; or (ii) always count on your friends to pay your bills; or (iii) you have a guilty conscience right now.

China: Student Mobility Program

It was decided by our respected Prof. Anisah that my upcoming mobility program, I will not be going to CUPL, Beijing. Instead I will be heading to:

Hunan University, Hunan

Although, I really wanted to visit CUPL but since our group is facing certain difficulties, thus, it's better to opt for a more appropriate option. Nevertheless, Hunan is too (Guilin 1st) famous for their landscape and scenery. I hope it will be breathtaking.

On the other note, I am done with two of my final papers (Criminal Law and Tort Law). The remaining papers will be Muamalat (Islamic Finance Law) and Intellectual Property Law. Pray for my best. I think I'm in trouble (considering the fact that I am still blogging right now). :'(

Notebook Charger.

Isn't it appalling and irritating when you have arrived in your dorm, after 2 hours and 45 minutes flight from your home town, realizing that you have forgotten to bring your notebook charge with you ?

That's basically how I felt last week.

I was deprived of internet usage for a week ! I can't blog and I have to surf Facebook using my phone. Such a painful period of time, especially when I couldn't remove tags from ugly pictures uploaded by idiotic friends at Facebook.

Luckily, a friend was able to bring it back for me. Now, I can officially announce that I can and will start blogging again.

P/S: Look forward to my upcoming posts.;)

A song to brighten up your day. Smile ;D

Jodie Connor - Now or Never (feat. Wiley)

Heard this song over the radio 2 days back. Stuck on my head since then. Check it out: Now or Never by Jodie Connor. She is a new singer from UK.

Lyrics:

Now Or Never lyrics

I wanna be with you forever (ever, ever),
Baby me and you together (gether, gether),
I'll walk with you through stormy weather (weather, weather),
Me and you it's now or never (never, never),
You know I've always had a crush on you,
I'm pretty sure you feel the same way too,
Do you wanna be together (gether, gether),
Me and You it's now or never (never, never),
It's now or never, boy.

You got my heart,
Right from the start,
I can't get enough,
Could this be love?
I told you before,
I can't ignore,
I wanna know

When I'm around you, baby,
I can never shake this,
Feelin' that comes over me,
You know that I'll be right here, baby,
They can say I'm crazy,
But I know I'm meant to be.

I wanna be with you forever (ever, ever),
Baby me and you together (gether, gether),
I'll walk with you through stormy weather (weather, weather),
Me and you it's now or never (never, never),
You know I've always had a crush on you,
I'm pretty sure you feel the same way too,
Do you wanna be together (gether, gether),
Me and You it's now or never (never, never),
It's now or never, boy.

Can't take no more,
I'm ready to go,
You already know,
You stay on my mind,
It's got to be,
Just you and me,
So you can see

When I'm around you, baby,
I can never shake this,
Feelin' that comes over me,
You know that I'll be right here, baby,
They can say I'm crazy,
But I know I'm meant to be.

I wanna be with you forever (ever, ever),
Baby me and you together (gether, gether),
I'll walk with you through stormy weather (weather, weather),
Me and you it's now or never (never, never),
You know I've always had a crush on you,
I'm pretty sure you feel the same way too,
Do you wanna be together (gether, gether),
Me and You it's now or never (never, never),
It's now or never, boy.

(Wiley)

Met her on a Friday,
Spoke on a Sunday.
She said I'm the one she liked,
Now we're the wrong way.
Ain't coming back for a while,
Will return one day. (Jodie: One day).
Buy a big house in the country,
We'll do somethin'.
Give her the real good lovin',(Jodie: Lovin').
Just the way that she likes it, (Jodie: Likes it).
I see her in my future, (Jodie: I see you in my future).
I got the vision of a phsycic.
She don't drive me mad,
She gotta good heart I'm glad.
Can't see it ever being over (over, over, over).

(Jodie)

I wanna be with you forever (ever, ever),
Baby me and you together (gether, gether),
I'll walk with you through stormy weather (weather, weather),
Me and you it's now or never (never, never),
You know I've always had a crush on you,
I'm pretty sure you feel the same way too,
Do you wanna be together (gether, gether),
Me and You it's now or never (never, never),
It's now or never, boy.

Ohooh,
It's now or never, boy.
It's now or never boy.

Great Food at Luna Bar

Following the previous post (Vivian's Birthday), this post is about great foods I had at Luna Bar. I had a cocktail - Men are from Mars. It was chocolaty. Definitely not a drink for grown-ups.

Men are from Mars.

We ordered meatballs too. It was succulent and tasty, though, it might looked the opposite.

Meatballs.

The best food we had was the cheesy tacos. Albeit the tacos were cheap crackers that can easily be bought from supermarkets, the dish was fantabulous. Love the cheese.

Cheesy Tacos.

Vivian had the Women are from Venus. It was strawberry-flavored.

Lastly, pizzas. The pizzas here are certainly tastier than pizzas from Pizza's Hut.

Luna Bar's Pizza.

Are you hungry now ? ;)

Depression

Dear Journal,

Have you ever felt your life has lost it's direction...you are caught in a web of nothingness, wondering what to look forward too.

As if life no longer has any purpose to be continued. All you wanted to do is to stop thinking and sleep forever.

It's depression.

| Source: http://www.abc.net.au/news/stories/2009/10/08/2708245.htm

Depression was never in my dictionary. Since young, I am always the half-full boy that ambitiously aims to conquer the world. I'd never dwelt in self-pity before.

... And out of the blue, I was struck with emptiness. My feeling of depression was horrible. I was lost. I kept thinking and rethinking the purpose of me existing in this world. At one point, I was pretty convinced that my own brain was trying to kill me.

It lasted for around 2 weeks.

Although I can't identify what had helped me to recover but, personally, I felt the time I spent with my friends did assist in releasing my mind from unnecessary thoughts. I ate a lot of good food too, e.g., ice-creams.

Banana Split !

During my depression, Japan was hit by tsunami and earthquakes. When I saw the pictures of the calamity, I appreciate my life a little bit better. It made me realize that my life is much better off than a loads of people. For the very least, I have a bed to snuggle in and a blanket to keep me warm.

Japan's Blight. | Source: http://news.nationalgeographic.com

With all the tiny incidents I've experienced, I'm glad that I am no longer depressed. I do hope this post can reach out to those who are currently depressed. Live your life y'all !

For more guidances:

1. Focus your life in the present rather then envisioning the future.

2.Take a walk at the park or somewhere with great scenery.

3. Find a new interest. *Blogging ;)*

4. Do whatever it takes to occupy your mind,e.g., watch your favorite drama or movie, read a book, exercise and etc.

5. If there is a reason behind your depression, take it positively. Though, you might not be able to solve it, try to embrace it and move on.

Majestic morning scenery from my room.